I can totally relate to being in a situation but not being able to fully express how I felt about the situation. The one thing that comes to mind is a situation that happend to me when I was younger. My mom abandoned my sisters and I at my grandmother's house so we were forced to move with our father. After two years or so my mom began to come back around. Of course I still loved her but I had built up resentment toward her. She would always get into altercations with my stepmom and repeatedly expressed the fact that she wanted us to come back home. I was only in the fourth grade so i knew only half of whats going on. My daddy would ask us all of the time did we want to go back. So many thoughts and emotions would run through my tiny head. I wanted to go back but then i didnt, i also didnt want to hurt his feelings. Looking in his eyes I could see the hurt at my indecisivness. My reply would always be '' I dont know" because I didnt know how to express my feelings to him. In actuality my heart ached. After that I always had sort of an attitude towards my mom growing up. We never learned how to talk to one another. Every reaction to a problem was an argument. There was something no one else knew and what i didnt dare show anyone. The day she left us and told us she was going to be right and never came it hurt me deeply. It was something i never got over even after we were back living with her. My dad used to often ask am I ohkay and me reply would be " Yes I'm good". But I never was and even if i tried i dont think I could ever even began to express how much she hurt me and my sisters, there are no words. Ive never been the emotional type, Im really a person of few words. So expressing myself is pretty difficult for me. So I fully understand not being able to present meaningful experiences in words.